Posted in Moi, Realité

Weekend blues.

Thought will have a lazy weekend, be a couch potato, order a pizza, pick up a beer and enjoy champions trophy, no one at home can be so much fun.
Unfortunately none of it worked out, was forced to be at a relative place on saturday, Why cant people leave a person alone, I am grown up and can look afer myself and my stomach.
Thought Sunday would be better, but wasted time at a mall, which again was forced to goto.
I was never like this, would enjoy a company anyday, Is it work lifestyle or what, which has made me a loner, Nowadays I dont get bored to spend weeks together, alone, I have enough things to watch, read, most of all just to enjoy my life independantly.
This is like I am doing stuff not because I want to but, people want me to, Very similar to this would be I wake up and I have breakfast not becuase I am hungry but My mom wants me to have it.
I want to stay few days where I am not dictated by people or in most of the cases time. It should not be time for lunch, It should be something like man I am hungry where is the food.
Well your physical and mental state would be so similar right, thats exactly what I want to do intellectually, I want to talk to someone when I feel like doing it, not becuase It does not look nice If i dont respond.

All This makes me wonder when Did I become this loner.????

This weekend too I am going to coorg, not becuase i want to, but becuase I have too.. what a life.

Posted in thoughts to think

beautifull words

Heard this beautifull words in a del amriti song titled “Tell her this”

Tell her not to go
I aint holding on no more
Tell her something in my mind freezes up from time to time

Tell her not to cry
I just got scared thats all
Tell her Ill be by her side, all she has to do is call

Tell her the chips are down
I drank too much and shouted it aloud
Tell her something in my heart
Needs her more than even clowns need the laughter of the crowd

Tell her what was wrong
I sometimes think to much
But say nothing at all
And tell her from this high terrain, I am ready now to fall

Tell her not to go
I aint holding on no more
Tell her nothing if not this; all I want to do is kiss her

Tell her something in my mind
Freezes up from time to time.

great one..

Posted in "Theory of pursuit"

Logic Vs Emotion

I have always loved to argue about stuff, I have been in just two places giving end or the recieving end, I hardly remember any case where i was just a spectator.
Recently I was part of an arguement which got really heated up, I am currently in a state where I am trying to control my expressions. trying not to speak unless you are spoken tokind of a face,I was trying hard not to get sucked into this but eventually i was done in.
As I was sitting there trying hard not to give out my points. I realsied how hard it is forthe 3rd person who does not want to be a part of the arguement. As i sat there my mind was going back to all kinds of arguements I have had in the past and try to imagine the plight of the 3rd person on site. Man I would really like to apologize to them, for giving them that crap. Just getting taste of my own medicine made me realize how bad the effect could be of the arguement on a spectator.
Coming back to arguement that was going on, I am till now not to decide which side I wason,,,I have not even thought about who was right. Then I realised the probable reason for that. An arguement or a debate should be done with common underlying agenda, otherwise both sides will end up hurt. This one I saw was one side with logical battle, What this side was saying any sane person would have never contradicted,But you see from the other side, that was pure emotion and sentiment, sentiments mind you becomes quadrupled when it comes to tradition and religion. People dont mind their ideas being dismissed but not thier sentiments.
My mind was swaying between the logical and my emotional needs, the sentiments on either sides where totally based on differant ideologies, I am sure on a normal day if either side has just considered one aspect of the debate, thinking just logically or just emotionally would have never had such a fight.