I heard this on TV, in one of the episodes I was catching up, the lead character gives a tip “One needs to be always proud of his achievements“. It does look like a cheesy lame line straight out of self help book, [which does remind me of my wonder at why self help books are always termed cheesy]. Anyways, coming back to the tip, Its one of those lines you know, which kind of strike you subconsciously and then, in your spare time your mind kind of picks up thinking about it, almost without your knowledge.
Just the other day I wrote something, which I did not publish over here, it was about an answer to an imaginary question. “If I were to be asked what do I regret the most today“?. I honestly felt that one of my biggest regrets of today was something which I really was too happy to achieve. I mean I still consider it a good achievement, even though it does not carry so much of a value any more, to me it still is an achievement, and I know how much I struggled for it, and how much I valued it. Today I regret it. No it does not reduce the value of the achievement in my eyes, but still I regret that. I felt the price I paid for that achievement was too much, may be I never got to undo the damage caused on my way to that achievement , may be I would have done much better without that achievement but with other things which I “Want” now.
Gardon parks, well known for his photo essays for Life magazine once told that “Many times I wondered whether my achievement was worth the loneliness I experienced, but now I realize the price was small.“, I feel he was wrong, he must have paid a very heavy price or may be I haven’t reached a stage nor an achievement which makes me feel that the price I paid is small.
This post does carry a lot of abstracts, with no proper clarity of the achievement I am talking about and the price I paid. I did this purposefully, it could not just be me, it could by any of us, any of our achievements, or any of the price we paid.
Sometimes it makes me wonder, when I want something really bad, or when I seem to not achieve something, or even worse when I realize I have lost it, when I feel that I have missed the flight and now there is no way I can get back, may be that’s when I associate my failure to achieve something as a price to something which I did achieve. May be that’s why when celebrities realize they have screwed up their personal life, and there is no way they are going to get it back, may be that’s when they claim that their personal life is the price they paid for being in the limelight. Or may be when I screw up my social life, I claim that to be a price I pay for a lucrative carrier. Deep down I do know that If I want to I could have a social life the way I want, also do know that without a time occupying carrier as well I still might have ended up having a lousy social life. But all we do, blame it on carrier. “I am so busy always, I totally screwed up my social life!”. How many times have we heard people say this.
May be that’s all it is to achievement and regrets, totally manipulated the way we want, to kind of please ourselves that it was not us who were responsible, it was the price which we paid.
It does not stop us, does it?, I mean all this talk about how achievements are nothing, regrets are worthless, achievements make us pay so and so forth, we still want things badly, we still are passionate about what we want to achieve, we still continue to claim what we couldn’t achieve as the price we paid.
I think I am gonna go with the tip, a dear friend gave me in one of her comments over my earlier posts “Stop Thinking!”.
Topic over at skittles today is “Tip”, and I think I made a lousy attempt at the prompt 😦