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the summer 

of may

And I, 

onset of 


The September.


There was a line in the movie “Little Manhatten” where it goes something like “she is may and I am september”, somehow the line caught onto me, and I started thinking so many things it can mean, the line in the movie is used to depict that “she” is born in may, and “he” in september, but I could come up with atleast 4 different interpretations of what the months could stand for. This is one of my versions of the line.

The topic over at Sunday Scribblings happens to be “winter”, and I thought may be this is close to the prompt.

Posted in Moi, Nostalgia, Personal, Thoughts

Years from my life

I am dreamer, remember the old series “Mungeri lal ke hasein sapne”?..well not so much, but still once in a while or so, I do dream, more like fantasies you know. Many a times I have caught myself fantasizing in the broad daylight, before you get naughty ideas, let me tell you, they are about things I see myself doing. [Again, people keep the naughtiness out of your minds]. Many a times I have thought, how nice it will be if I spend an year doing this, spend an year there.

So If I were to get an year from my life, all free to do what I want, with no strings attached, these are things I would love to be doing.

I would like to spend an year by studying an year abroad, doing my junior high.

This is sort of going back in time, but it still plays on my mind many a times, may be its got to do with so many series I watch of kids, something attracts me to the years of growing up, with no tension, with so much opportunities. I would love do that again here in India, but I want the exposure to many extra curricular activities, projects, and the life in general associated with an “made to believe” teenage life of a foreign kid.

I would like to spend an year doing what I call Traveling Foodie Journalism.
I really don’t know if the title makes sense, but this is the job title I came up with what I want to do, I want to just travel across the world doing journalism about food around that place. Remember Anthony Bourdain, I think this is my current fantasy profession. Couple of bad things though, as I am a vegetarian it would be tough to fit into the job, secondly I think I will definitely loose the thin frame which I am so accustomed to from last twenty seven years. But who cares about reality in fantasies right? 😉

I would like to spend an year living in some part of Bengal.
I have a strange fascination towards this taste, its rich heritage, its literary prowess, the music, the art associated, everything seems to attract me. How fun it would be to just live there, do what bengali’s do, eat their food, and indulge in things which interest them. I just want to experience the age old bengali life. Probably not in Kolkatta, even if it is there within the old parts. One thing must though are some local bengaly friends, who will take me around and help me lead ‘their’ life. Did I mention I love their pop/jazz culture and should I mention their food?.

I would love spending an year, getting back to studying.
That’s the thing I was best at, you know studying, scoring, exams, books. Its like how Sachin Tendulkar must feel towards cricket. Something which I have done for 22 years of my life. How did I ever decide to just discontinue still haunts me. Not that I cannot start doing that again, but I do not see the point, my decision not to do post graduation had many reasons, which I think is beyond subject of this post. But whatever said and done, I want to get back doing that for just one more year, with the dedication I had all through my student days.
[Now 2 out of 5 fantasies, has me studying in the year, can I say I am not a nerd?.]

I would like to spend an year living in the mountains.
I think this fantasy many others would share with me. there is something about mountains which attracts one and all. I have always been a visitor to the mountains which I tend to hate, I want to live there with having a return date you know, just get a feel that I am a mountain resident, the cold climate, the early sunrise and sunset, the early morning, and late evening chillness just excite me. The laid back life of the mountains is something I would love to experience for an year.

What about you guys? where and how would you want to spend an year.

Posted in matinee, Thoughts, thoughts to think

Wisdom from a movie

 I’d be driving along and I’d happen to look up in the rear view mirror, there’d be all these bloody people and crashed cars in the street and I’d think, “Jesus, there’s a lot of bad drivers in this neighborhood.” That was me, with people.


I wasn’t even watching the movie, just flipping the channels when I heard this quote, aren’t some writers great?..later found out that this is one of the memorable quotes from the movie “Bounce” acording to imdb 

Posted in Moi, Personal, poésie, poetry, Realité, Uncategorized

Hours of darkness

I am grateful,

For those hours of darkness

When you force me

To come out of my blinding room.

Away from the lights and puters

Into open air and sky full of stars.

To a level of highness

Which I knew existed, but somehow avoided.

I am grateful

For those hours of darkness

As I tumble along

In the semi darkness of the moonlight

Free from a feeling of being pulled back,

With a unknown smile on my lips

With music in my ears,

And sways of dance on my hips.

I am grateful

For those hours of darkness

As I discover

Those hidden thoughts and desires

As I for once

Live without caring for being watched

As I forget

All inhibitions and fears and be not ‘me’

I am grateful

For those hours of darkness


This has to be the most absurd thing I have written, with the daily power cuts here in Bangalore, I am left with no choice but to think of something to do with no power. Today I just out of the blue decided to go up onto the terrace, with my ipod stuck to my ears, I just walked around tumbling on small stones and looking into the sky. Its strange isn’t it, the feeling of the freeness you get when you think you cannot be seen, once in the darkness, even though you have no walls around you, you have a open sky above your head, and darkness all around, you feel a kind of freedom, and bid goodbye to all your inhibitions and shyness. 


The topic over at Sunday scribblings this week is “grateful”, aren’t I grateful for thoughts like these.

Posted in Life, Moi, Realité, Uncategorized

Scaling lives.

I saw this post sometime back here, and was immediately drawn to the concept. It is like evaluating yourself and I liked the idea a lot. Who better to gauge the progress of my life, than myself. I guess this would really help to improve things which I am not so happy about, so here it goes my answer to the all important question

How would you rate your life?…On a scale of 1 to 10.…

Work wise?? When one moves from a job which you hate a lot, to even something which is mediocre, you just love the change. I guess my current job began like that. And once you get to see the extreme, you are always afraid to change the job because from mediocre you could go back to the worse. Even though I crib about my job, somewhere subconsciously I am satisfied, otherwise I wouldn’t stick for almost 5 years now. Decent money, decent work load, and decent workplace respect, so can one blame me for being complacent?.
I guess I would rate my work 7/10

Health wise??  I am no macho man, nor the hunky fit poster pinup, but I have never fell sick in a serious manner. Yes my eyes require glasses to see properly, and my hairs wouldn’t need comb few years down the line, and may be my knees aren’t world strongest, nor my teeth. But still a working piece I am.
I guess I shall rate myself 6/10
[I know all the food I eat, my heart may not be the healthiest ;)]

Education ?? I think I did what I wanted to, and chose not to do things I didn’t. However stupid it may sound to others, there were my decisions and I still stand by it. You know what I am satisfied with what I achieved.
I shall rate myself 8/10

Spiritual factor?? I am at a stage where I do not understand spirituality, or rather trying to define my own meaning for the word, because I feel spirituality is a very subjective thought. I do believe in religion as well as spirituality, and the practices excite me a lot. I guess I haven’t yet found  my spiritual interests. 
I think I will rate 4/10

Family factor??  I love this part, I am not embarrassed to say that I am a family man, and most of my decisions are keeping them in mind, I might argue/fight with my parents a lot, I may not be the friendliest person amongst the relatives, but I like to believe I just love the family bond, and blessed to be in a family like mine. So I think I shall rate this 7/10 

Stress factor?? I suck at stress, even though I handle stress decently, I make my life stressful unnecessarily, I guess I really got to improve this one 
I rate myself 3/10

Psychological factor?? Hmm I don’t know how one can rate themselves on this factor. If this is about moods and state of mind, I guess I am extremely moody and get highs and lows very quickly. I can’t say if that is good or bad, I can’t say being sensitive is good or bad. So let me take the middle ground on this one and rate myself 5/10


here’s the grand total 40/70 .. that would come up to nearly 57%

I am not sure If I should be happy about my rating, but am now sure about few things to work on.

Guys any of you interested in trying this one?…try it, I found it really interesting.

Posted in Moi, Personal, Realité

Now Vs Then

I wanted to run away from familiarity, I wanted to have the feeling of a big change, wanted to see if I can survive a big change
The change has become familiar, and I guess I will not be running away from familiarity as such, may be running into one.

I was excited and happy
I am happy but no excitement.

I had so many new things I wanted to try/experience and I even had a fear that I might cross the line.
The excitement has died down drastically, I know what things I will  do, and I guess I know the outcome too.

There was no expectations from me, even from myself.
I guess I am expected to do a lot more, if not by anybody from myself.

Concept of new people excited me.
I will miss the old ‘new’ people.

Everything was an adventure
I got to find newer adventures.

There was no comparison, everything I did made history and memories
I have a lot to compare with, and I have a doubt I might end up feeling sour

I was hopeful the change will do me good.
I am sure the change will bring some changes.

Cooking was scary, and food was a big concern.
No longer afraid, infact I am looking forward to.

Its too early to mention what I am talking about, but this was on my mind for long now, so am just kicking the thoughts out onto here. All I can say now is that, it’s a comparison of times, which I am sure you guys can easily make out.

P.S I think some of the statements are a big give away.

Posted in "Fifty Five Words ", "Theory of pursuit", poésie, poetry, Thoughts, thoughts to think

A stranger, welcomed.

With life, ready to retire,

Waiting to get cozy,

With those distant howls of jealousy,

And the twilight of reminiscent.

Umpteen attempts of climbing ladders, 

And escaping the snake bites,

Raising suns, and sunny afternoons later

Here I welcome the dark stranger,

Right into my life.

A known stranger from yesterday,

Unknown to the morrow.


Guys I am back doing my sunday scribblings after a gap of about 3 weeks, it feels good to be back to doing things which I like, and one of which happens to be squeezing in stuff into 55 words, here goes my attempt at the prompt “stranger”. One thing though, I am not sure if I wrote this keeping in mind the stranger to be ‘a night’ or ‘the death’, let me know what you guys make of it.

Posted in Family, Personal, Realité, Taking a break, Uncategorized

Rajasthan vacation tidbits #2

Guys I am back to bore you with more vacation tidbits, this time its the two days which we spent in Udaipur following our two days at Jaipur. You can read the first part of the post “here

*We were supposed to leave Jaipur by around 8, I got up at my usual time of 6am, and discovered something, my stomach, excruciating pain that ran through my body, I rushed to the restroom, but all the eating I did at chowki Dani the last night had taken toll on me, and man it was bad. I skipped breakfast and just had couple of glasses of orange juice. Couple of trips to the restroom and few pills later, I was ready to leave Jaipur. The plan was to visit Chittorgarh, a big fort on the way to udaipur.

*One thing that strikes you during the journey from Jaipur to Udaipur is the road, the highway is just too good, huge 4 lanes on both the directions, and smooth with no path holes, we just cruised along in our innova, Just loved this aspect of the travel

*When we reached Chittorgarh, I was floored by the hugeness of the fort. The best part was that you could take a tour around the fort in your car, and this helped a lot especially with my bad tummy. The guide we took was extremely knowledgeable and well past his middle age, this meant that he spoke a LOT, he started with the history from loooooong ago and began telling us, we spent first 30 mnts learning when the fort was built, by whom, and when he moved out. The bad part was the scorching sun, and my bad tummy. The sun meant that along with tummy, now I had a bad headache, which made it impossible for me to stand at one place. You could easily spot a restless rambler hoping for the lecture to end. This has to be easily my worst day of the vacation.

*We moved along and checked the Rana Kumba palace, the meera temple, the vijay stumbh couple other places in the fort slowly, and tummy was a little better now, but the headache, and no lunch had made my condition worse.

*We finally reached a dhaba at 4pm, imagine me, and no food till 4 pm, just two glasses of juice, I was really miserable, all I wanted to do was sleep, so for the first time I just choose a bench slightly away from where others were sitting and ordering food, and just dozed off.

*food took a long time to arrive, and by then I was up, a plate full of curd rice is what I had, and was just hoping to reach udaipur.

*We reached Udaipur by 6:30PM and we didn’t have any plans for the day except boating, we learnt that boating gets closed by 6, so we were late. Our hotel person suggested a place called “Bagore Ki Haveli”, this is a place where they showcase all the traditional dances from across Rajasthan. The show was to begin at 7, so we quickly freshened up an got into the car. We reached the place by 7:10 and the show had already begun. We rushed in, and tried to find seats.

*Bagiore ki Haveli, is very different from normal places, its just an old haveli with a big courtyard, where they perform dances. They have put these carpets around the court yard where you are supposed to be seated, and they perform various dances in the middle. This was an surprise, we liked this a lot. The strange thing was that there were very few Indians at this place, and we were surrounded by huge number of non Indian travelers all enjoying the dance. The ticket price is just 30Rs, and this is very close to the Lake Pichola. The only drawback though are the dancers, most of them are really old 🙂

*After a nice hour spent at that place we came out to the main market which is close to the haveli, and started searching for a place to have dinner. That’s when someone suggested a pure vegetarian restaurant called “baba palace”, we went there and found out that they serve pure veg chicken biryani. Well we had been totally mislead. As we had already gone inside, we decided to order food. This was a roof top restaurant, so I decided to go up further to get the view from the watch tower. The view of the fully lit Udaipur palace was just amazing, this was a day before diwali, so the jagadish mandir too was well lit, the view was just too good.

* I met couple of people from Isreal while at the top, and we have good fun discussing Rajasthan as I tried to help them set up a make shift tripod for their SLR.

*We had a huge fight with the management at the hotel as they took almost 90 minutes to deliver our order, all of us lost our cool, and infact my aunt barged into their kitchen to check if they were really cooking our order.

*I woke up early next day to take a walk around the place we were staying. We stayed very close to Fateh Sagar Lake, so I wanted to have a early morning view. I went to the terrace of our hotel, to get the gorgeous view of the sunrise and also the garden surrounding the lake, A morning totally well spent.

*This was supposed to be a busy day, as we were supposed to do sight seeing all day, we went to the Udaipur palace which is a very good spectacle, we also saw the jagdish temple and garden of fountains called “Sahelioyon ki bhari” which was a waste of time, and then we went to shilpagram which is like a place where they exhibit and sell Rajathani art and handicrafts. It too turned out to be not so good.

*We had a great great lunch, gujrati thali at restaurant called “natraj”, god bless the owner. Just loved the food there.

*I forgot to mention that this day, was the diwali day, and we could hear firecrackers bursting all around. Our driver wanted to take the evening off and celebrate diwali. All he had to do was ask that in a straight forward manner, instead he kept beating around the bush, saying we couldn’t do anything in the evening and stuff like that. People around me kept pushing him to take us do the boating, he reluctantly agreed, we found out that the boating is just till 5, and he had mislead us that it is till 6, so there went our plan. He was supposed to pick us up from the central place, but he gave some excuse and we had to take a rickshaw.

*I got the best ride of my life here. As its diwali time there were no rickshaws at all and all we could find was one three wheeler. 9 of us, including the rickshaw driver all got into that small automobile and reached our hotel. I cant believe 9 of us fit into that.

*The driver was still not spared as all people with me wanted to go to the same place for dinner. I was so embarrassed, all I wanted was just to let him go, poor guy wanted to celebrate diwali. I was just sick of the people

finally we ended the Diwali day at Udaipur, with all of us taking a sound sleep. 

more tidbits to follow…